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Sunday, July 27, 2008, 6:13 PM
couldn't take any longer
You know what,my patience had exceeded way beyond and i may collapsed sooner or later. I've been strong all along, following your tune and melody but what i get was just bullshit. I've been tolerating and I know I don't mind coz its parts and parcel of r/s. But I can't seem to know what you want. We are straining further and further each day. I sleep with dreams which turned to nightmare. I need a shoulder to cry on. I need a hug. I need couragement. I need perseverence. I need to be strong. I was sobbing real hard when I'm typing this. None were online to talk to. I don't even know what to do now. I should go and sleep. Cry in my sleep and you don't have to thing about anything when you woke up. But there's another different story when you woke up. Have I ever told you i'm kinda sensitive? Every littlest thing, idk why my tears would drop easily, imagine I can't hold on now, imagine how I'm crying right now? yeah, kinda bad. In the 1st place, I should never pin high hopes on him, thinking about the future together, everything, and now, I should blame myself. You deserve this this Liyana. Well done. Any minute I'm gonna collapsed. I could no longer hold on tightly. Yeah its slipping so easily.I've sensed something is gonna happen. Something not good going to take place. Its just fated. I took seriously in this r/s, hopping that everything that we dreamt of will come true. Yes.it WONT It will never happen. thanks for everything. the promises you made are just lie. I went through many obstacles but never knew its gonna end like this. |