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Sunday, April 20, 2008, 12:30 AM
Have you ever wonder?
Have you ever been asked or asked someone, what do you want in life? food for thoughts.... Everyone has their own wants in life. What they want to do, what they want to be and what they REALLY want. I though about it, not once, not twice, but umpteen times. Its neither easy nor difficult to find what you want in life, its how you are going to choose the path that would lead you the way. What am I going to do when I graduate? Job?Married?Continue studies? I ponder for minute, ponder what I wanna do in my OWN life. Nobody will lead the life for you, its your ownself.You are the one to find the true meaning of life. Many people went to the wrong path in life because they have no ways, no route to the right path, no goals. They just follow the majority. I don't wanna follow that route. I want to succeed in life. I want to make my parents proud. I want to be happy. I want to live a beautiful life. I know that I can make it if I put my heart and soul in it. Be optimistic. Be true to yourself. Be sincere. Be happy. Be strong. Be who you are. I don't want people to see me..one day... living a shattered life. living in misery. living in agony. living...full of tears and sadness... NO.I dont want that. I want to GO FAR in life. I've thought about it.Its not wrong to think for your own future. You are never wrong, its whether, ARE YOU WILLING TO? After graduation, I want to work. Saved enough money to further my studies. I don't wish to burden my parents. I don't want them to work. I wanna support them. Its the time when I repay back their kindness...bringing me up to the way I am today. Splurging their every cents to see me through in my studies. Its countless to count how much money they actually send us to school. Its countless. You can never repay them back how they actually want you to go to school. To be a good person. To have a good qualification. I know they want me to lead a wonderful life. I've experienced that. My parents does not have high qualification. They don't want me to be in the same shoes as them.They never get good pay. What they can afford, I can never complain.I considered myself; not rich, not poor. Sometimes I think over; Why am I not born in a wealthy family? Why can't I have the luxurious life like my other friends? Why can't I have the things that my friends can afford? I am not lucky. But I can say, it lies in your own fate. I don't want to complain. I'm content that I have happy family. I have complete family even though I could not afford all the things, could not afford to live in big houses, could not afford to have what others can buy. I treasure everything. I am fortunate. I am blessed. I do wanna get married. I do wanna have kids. I do wanna go Paris. I do wanna have a happy family. I do wanna my parents to enjoy their old age. I wanna them to be happy. I want them to be proud of me. I want them to be proud to say," Oh, this is my DAUGHTER!She's having a good life NOW." Imagine if the other way round, how are your parents able to face the world? Are they gonna hide their faces forever?? I do wanna be successful in life. gees...actually teared when i wrote this...as though someone had lifeted a heavy load in my heart all this while....
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