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Sunday, November 18, 2007, 9:02 PM
idk
i will be all that you want and get my self together cause you keep me from falling apart was feeling kinda bored today. didn't go out.just stayed at home all day long. watch tv.....eat......clean my room.....fold clothes.......wash all the utensils.......... hahaha. tmr still have school. haish. super uberly lazy. i've been thinking a lot lately nowadays. i don't know why. thinking about life. my life. others. what do i really want in life. yes. not everything that we wished for will come true. but i know. i need to work hard. really really hard. i'm just earning for happiness. to make my parents happy. people around me happy. people who love me to be happy. my friends to be happy. that day will come. yes. it will. i don't deny that there's something within me is trying to let it all out. something that is still in my heart. i'm still searching the real "answer" to it. i don't want to jump to conclusion and easily said the 3 words. no. i want to seek more and more inner heart of mine. i don't want history to be played back. i really don't want to have a broken heart again. its neither fun nor happy anyway. but i know...there's someone would make my heart beat faster. someone whom i can talk with. smile which will shown on face when he called me. they sincerity in his words. everything. seems so perfect. everything seems so undescribable to me. its really difficult to describe i feel. but.....i'm still waiting for that very day. dat DAY. and i hope...its not another fantasy of mine. i hope..... its the REALITY...   |